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You stop and think to yourself how you ever got to the position you're in. You never know where you are and we forget there is always room for improvement in your life. What's truly been the hardest thing for me is to finally let my past go. I can say it over and over that I have or I want to but it's not until you are truly confronted with that issue that you really know whether that hedge has been defeated. It's been lingering in the back of my mind for ages and the fact that I don't even care says something about my growth. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? What still bugs me is my fear to go through another re-run of the past. The fear of hurt once again. But you can't live life like that. Someone is going to come and change you either for the better or for the worse. The fear is mostly of myself fear of not being strong enough to face the battles ahead, but life is full of battles. I think that's another problem with us as human beings we think too much of what will be instead of what it is. The more we worry the more we're paranoid. Paranoia is something that has destroyed me. The hurts I held onto destroyed me. I choose to be a better person and I choose to trust and accept that whatever happens.. happens and as long as I do what's right I'll be alright.