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Don't ever try to assume my pains because my burdens may not even depict somewhat of a worry for you. It's enough for people to say it's in your mind. It probably is. But what's worse is for people to mistake your struggles for selfish behavior. I don't know what hurts more to know I'm lonely or not to know who I can trust. The real struggle is finding the right person to talk to about things. I don't need this shit of people bringing me down when I'm trying to say how I feel I don't need for people to tell me how wrong I am. I just want someone to just understand and listen because that's all I do for people. I just feel as if no one is there to listen. I told my mom tonight who I was arguing with that there are only 3 people in the world who genuinely care about me and the decisions I make in life. I just need somewhere to let it out. I don't even know how to get over this. This stress is not normal stress. If people took the time to hear me out maybe they would understand my stress is more like fear because of all the shit the world put me through at a young age I hate to disappoint I hate to fail. I've been called a failure too many times. You can't please the world but to hear that voice of shame... It's not just something I can let go. It's inbred. I live in fear when it comes to shit like this and people just don't want to understand. They're careless.