15.

It's sad to think that you could let one person mean so much to you. so much. It's pretty sad to think that I still write and think about it but the way someone makes you feel you can never forget. Everytime I see you the feelings of hurt come back but everytime you speak to me the feelings of what could have been spin around in my head. I honestly don't know why. It's like that little part of my heart can never forget about what happened all together. You weren't like any of the others. I thought I was meant for you but what I thought was meant for you wasn't really meant for you. It makes me fear love to a large degree. I havn't thought or wanted to associate with anyone. You were everything I ever wanted but I wasn't everything you ever wanted. That's probably the part I can't really get over.. the feeling of rejection and not being good enough. But I know I'm good enough.. and maybe that's what it was, Maybe it was God's way of telling me that you weren't good enough for me. I was a joke to you right and everything you told me was bs to get my attention? Talk is cheap. If there was one thing I wish I could tell the 'younger' me it's that Talk is cheap.