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On a very personal note. Do you ever feel that you have just that one thing from your past that you're so attached too? No matter what? It's how I'm feeling now. I think it's normal though? I don't know. Living in Adelaide has been the biggest blessing ever but at the same time I also feel like something is missing from me. Despite the emotionally scarring childhood, despite the shit that happened to me whilst living in Melbourne. There's still one thing. I'll always find myself attached to the beginning. I guess what I'm trying to say is I miss my dad and at times it bugs me how I feel like this because you know. he's there. I'm here? Idk. It's really hard to explain because I know he's with me everywhere I go as well, My guardian angel. I just miss the old house, the old cars, the old things that belonged to my dad. The foundation on which was built upon by my parents. I love my life but in the back of mind it's as if everything has been replaced. I can't wish for anything now. I don't wish for anything. I just really miss you dad. More than anything in this whole world.